工傷

It's actually a repetitive stress injury (RSI), or what we now called 'Blackberry Thumb'.

My work demands a lot of up-to-date responses daily and I do live by my blackberry 24/7.  So naturally this is what I get for using my blackberry excessively in the last 10 years.

I have notice the pain a couple of years back and it's gotten worse over time.  So I guess this is the time for me to step back and have a normal life again.

I have no plan in continue using my blackberry when I move back, in fact, no plan to even obtain a cell phone.

I have talked and type enough, I need a break.

Dyson

As I am packing away, I couldn't help but planning ahead what to get for our future new home already.

And THIS, it's on the top of the shopping list.

I know it comes with a heart stopping price tag, and very likely we will need at least a couple of them for the house... but look at it, it's such a cool toy to have!  Not to mention it's probably easier to keep clean.

I adore the design, not very sure the magic behind it but I think it's worth the money.

Oh Yes!

簡單

So much to do, so little time.  Before you know it, we are in May already!

It's like a never ending task, I couldn't believe the amount of stuff hubby owns that I now needed to either get rid of or pack away.  This is by far the biggest challenge yet but someone has to do it.

In the packing process, I learned that unlike hubby, I have zero attachment towards anything.  I am not quite sure this is a good thing or it's a bit cold, but either way, this is me, if I can't take it when I die, none of the stuff matters.

Sell them all!!

哭

Surprisingly, as tough as I am at work, I can get quite emotionally moved by tiny little thing.

I guess this is my way of finding the right balance, aside from the nonstop daydreaming.

What I am trying to say is, grandpa is laid to rest today.

And I miss him deeply.

This too, will pass.

如何說再見

Goodbye grandpa, I know you are in a better place now, one day, we will see each other again.

我不怕

Every time I pack, it means another chapter of my life is about to begin.

The unknowns never really concern me, especially this time, this time I have a partner besides me.  It makes things more interesting, it makes the process more fun and it's because life is too short to not trying out everything.

We surprised everyone, but I am sure we will figure out our new path when we get settled.

I can't wait to start the journey, I can't wait to fly again.

善終服務

Death itself is not scary, the pain and suffering is.

Although grandpa was discharged from the hospital yesterday, he was sent back in the middle of the night, to the hospice this time.

We don't know how much longer, and there's nothing else we could do for him.  It's so hard to say goodbye, but I pray to my lord that he would leave peacefully, without pain anymore, without tears.

One day we will all meet again.

春

Before you know it, Spring is here.

Mother nature has been very kind this year, not too much snow and unseasonably warm thru out the winter and Spring, New York can be very pretty in Spring.

This could very well be my last Spring in New York, so I am taking it all in.  A slow stroll around the parks become our favourite pastime. I am not sure how much I will miss this city, but I will enjoy my last few months here.

Home is not too far away now.

選擇

Sometimes you have to make very difficult choices in life.

Sometimes, it's about life and death.

Watching grandpa lying in the hospital I often wonder what's the real meaning of old age and death.  How do we know when to continue the treatment, or when to let go?  Do we just prolong the suffering or are we being cruel to not do anything further?  Does grandpa has the right to know the truth or it's best for him not knowing?

So many tears, so many questions unanswered.

恕

Is that true that men forget but never forgive while women forgive but never forget?

Any relationship takes time to build, and to maintain.  Marriage is no different and probably requires more efforts if there are more dramatic family members 'involved'.  So watching our love ones' marriage falling apart is never easy, especially when the little ones will also be affected.

As an outsider, there's really only so much we can 'advise' because at the end of the day, it takes two to pick up the pieces.  Some people would choose to move on, others would stay and give the marriage another chance.

There's no right or wrong.  Your character controls your destiny.