簡單

So much to do, so little time.  Before you know it, we are in May already!

It's like a never ending task, I couldn't believe the amount of stuff hubby owns that I now needed to either get rid of or pack away.  This is by far the biggest challenge yet but someone has to do it.

In the packing process, I learned that unlike hubby, I have zero attachment towards anything.  I am not quite sure this is a good thing or it's a bit cold, but either way, this is me, if I can't take it when I die, none of the stuff matters.

Sell them all!!

哭

Surprisingly, as tough as I am at work, I can get quite emotionally moved by tiny little thing.

I guess this is my way of finding the right balance, aside from the nonstop daydreaming.

What I am trying to say is, grandpa is laid to rest today.

And I miss him deeply.

This too, will pass.

如何說再見

Goodbye grandpa, I know you are in a better place now, one day, we will see each other again.

我不怕

Every time I pack, it means another chapter of my life is about to begin.

The unknowns never really concern me, especially this time, this time I have a partner besides me.  It makes things more interesting, it makes the process more fun and it's because life is too short to not trying out everything.

We surprised everyone, but I am sure we will figure out our new path when we get settled.

I can't wait to start the journey, I can't wait to fly again.

善終服務

Death itself is not scary, the pain and suffering is.

Although grandpa was discharged from the hospital yesterday, he was sent back in the middle of the night, to the hospice this time.

We don't know how much longer, and there's nothing else we could do for him.  It's so hard to say goodbye, but I pray to my lord that he would leave peacefully, without pain anymore, without tears.

One day we will all meet again.

春

Before you know it, Spring is here.

Mother nature has been very kind this year, not too much snow and unseasonably warm thru out the winter and Spring, New York can be very pretty in Spring.

This could very well be my last Spring in New York, so I am taking it all in.  A slow stroll around the parks become our favourite pastime. I am not sure how much I will miss this city, but I will enjoy my last few months here.

Home is not too far away now.

選擇

Sometimes you have to make very difficult choices in life.

Sometimes, it's about life and death.

Watching grandpa lying in the hospital I often wonder what's the real meaning of old age and death.  How do we know when to continue the treatment, or when to let go?  Do we just prolong the suffering or are we being cruel to not do anything further?  Does grandpa has the right to know the truth or it's best for him not knowing?

So many tears, so many questions unanswered.

恕

Is that true that men forget but never forgive while women forgive but never forget?

Any relationship takes time to build, and to maintain.  Marriage is no different and probably requires more efforts if there are more dramatic family members 'involved'.  So watching our love ones' marriage falling apart is never easy, especially when the little ones will also be affected.

As an outsider, there's really only so much we can 'advise' because at the end of the day, it takes two to pick up the pieces.  Some people would choose to move on, others would stay and give the marriage another chance.

There's no right or wrong.  Your character controls your destiny.

本是同根生

We come across different clients everyday but this is by far one of the stand out cases with a sad ending.

This fight over the estate, among many other things, has been going on for years and as we witnessed the tears and heartaches intensified over the last two years, the curtain is suddenly drawn on one party.  That was it.  Just like that, all the angers, the hates, the greed for the money, the power, everything, just die with that person.

It's your own blood, and that is what it takes to end this in the end.

Money changes everything, money changes people.  But in the end, no one is going to take anything with them alive.

樹欲靜而風不息

Death is no easy subject.

I don't know what is it like to be 90 years old (and I pray that I don't live to be that age) but I can very much guessed, yes, pretty exhausting.

Is it just me or does anyone also notice that living can sometimes suck the energy out of you?  You know the work, the goals, the never ending routines, THE UNACHIEVABLE DIET PLAN!!!

So someone once said, that life is a great and terrible and short and endless thing, and none of us come out of it alive. 

I think so too.